Something unusual caught my eye as I drove into the grocery store parking lot today. It was the Oscar Mayer wienermobile! Immediately the old jingle came to mind.
“Oh I wish I was an Oscar Mayer wiener
That is what I truly wish to be.
Cause if I was an Oscar Mayer wiener,
Everyone would be in love with me.”
Its one of those songs that, even after 40+ years, still sticks in my head thinking of the little kids in the commercials singing along. You can’t help but smile! They had hot dog cut outs where you could have your picture taken and a sandwich board sign with the different versions of the wienermobile. I overheard a woman inquiring how the girls got the job of driving the wienermobile around. The girl said she was recruited in college and yes, it is her full-time job to drive around the country in the wienermobile. How fun would that be?!?!
It also brought up memories of my Nana, who passed away in January about 8 years ago now. When she babysat us, Nana would make us bologna (pronounced baloney - which is what I would say if anyone told me how tasty it was!) and ketchup sandwiches. I didn’t like them and would take forever to eat. In an effort to help me eat faster, Nana would say, “Eat your bologna, it will put hair on your chest.” What girl wants to grow hair on their chest? For heavens sake, as soon as hair starts to grow on our legs and arm pits, we reach for the razor! Nana was obviously trying to be funny and I just wasn’t having any of it. God love her! Haha!
Over the past several weeks, I’ve had more flashbacks of my 4 year old self and trying to heal. Letting go of the fear and anger associated with my uncle, even after speaking with one of my cousins and finding out that not only did he do similar things to her, that EVERYONE knew about it and kept allowing it to happen. That was a difficult pill to swallow! I understand that those were different times but just because you ignore something DOES NOT mean it didn’t happen NOR was it OK. Adults at least have an opportunity to defend and protect themselves. Children don’t always have that option and who’s there to protect them?!?!
Needless to say, a lot of anger surfaced during my Christmas visit and there were plenty of triggers to help get those feelings, emotions, and energetic roots out in the open to finally clear them. I knew something was coming up before even flying back East and that there would be confrontations. My uncle passed away years ago and I was quickly reminded by my friend, that was no excuse. Her words were, “You’re a medium and a clearer. Call him in, confront him, and clear him.” And I did. I knew when his spirit was in the room because I could feel the essence of his cold, dark heart. He was very arrogant, thinking he was dealing with the 4 year old girl. Not so. Now he was dealing with the 50 year old woman who was way more powerful than he would give credit for. I was able to say the things that needed to be said and clear the true essence of who he is which is very different than the human form he was in this lifetime.
In the end, being able to reconnect with my 4 year old self, clear out the anger, feelings of unworthiness, and being able to stand more firmly in my power was ultimately one of the greatest gifts I could have received this Christmas. Its also allowed me to embrace my childhood memories more and remember there were times of joy, too. Thank you to the Divine for bringing the wienermobile to Las Vegas so I could receive these messages and healing!
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